X'mas 2011

My very first christmas tree from Ben Yaw when I bumped into him at Parkson. Kinda weird. But it's nice though :)

Yea it's christmas day. My family doesn't celebrate Jesus's birthday so this special day doesn't bring any meaning to mum and dad. I hope we'll have the chance to decorate the christmas tree one day. Before this I have to persuade them to go to the church first.



YAYY I went to 台湾小馆 for dinner today. I'm not going there anymore since they failed to serve me nice food for twice already. Even my mum can cook hundred times better -.-

My face always look bigger and rounder in photos. Or to be precise my face is indeed round and big .__.

Despite the lousy food we had a whale of a time. Being together with good friends always promises a good laugh. Sharon Kho never waste one second in hunting handsome guys who are always at least two years younger than her. Grace Ngu maintains her "over high" spirit and keep laughing by her own. Someone curses people so often that I've learnt to say the same thing everytime I'm nervous. We're parting in two weeks time but I think this brings no difference since we know we'll still keep in touch. This is called friendship!

*Siian and I can't find Wen Yen and Ah Then's photo. I think I didn't delete it oh D:

Tadaa!

I bought the moon and star thingy at Imperial. Bought it simply because I feel like buying it. Btw I wore the butterfly ear ring yesterday for the first time after buying it for one year. It's so pretty but I just can't find other clothes to match with it on the other days.

Merry Christmas to all :)

Can't wait to countdown together with friends!

Shalala I've just edited the Html. This was my first time and I spent two hours on it. Posted in Chinese for too frequent!
Christmas is two days ahead. I hope mum would let me to go out with Likimxbb and Momo although I have only Rm 50 left in my purse. Even the super stingy Allan Chai has few hundreds HERH.
I'm in a good mood now but if someone can let me know how to edit more thingy that would boost up my mood :) someone help me *begging*
I feel like I'm making sentences now. Oh well just don't post anything if you don't have anything to talk about la. LOL
So, bye. AHAHA

体重快50的我最近严重觉得我除了蝴蝶袖很恐怖之外,脸也越来越多肉 T___T
就太闷了啊. download 很多 nigahiga 和 wongfu production 的 videos. 一群很自豪的 asian. 身为 asian 的我当然要很支持啊! 不过不太喜欢 kevjumba. 目前很喜欢的 videos 有 valentine's day story 和 The inavigator. 最近有 Christmas swag 可是他们 rap 太快我听不懂 HMM ><
就最近很不想 text 所以很常就没 reply D; 尤其是 pys 的. 就刚刚被骂所以很不想嬉皮笑脸地玩 texting 啊. 我也不想.
olivia Ong 的“海枯石烂”就爆好听的啊! 还有刘子绚真的是爆美的. 很明显地我最近很迷“行医”哈哈~ 我还知道李铭顺40岁, 而美到到到到很厉害的刘子绚30有2了. 而那个我觉得虽然不会很美很美 但演戏不错的短头发女生叫庞蕾馨, 今年27, 而且从台湾来. 她的名字很美啊啊啊 *amplify 再 amplify* 除了那个“庞”字. 没什么嘛,就真的真的很闷才去做资料搜寻.
就这样啊啊啊 *严重AMPLIFY* 很闷的人生就还剩下两个星期. 我也只有那两个星期保持颓废. 啊哈! 忘了说,我卷头发了! AHAHA 张莉琴你也快一点啊 <3

最近真的很闷. 在家看了很多很多成龙的旧戏,每一个动作都不用替身,我想这是我从很小就开始很喜欢他的原因. 有没有一部动作片不含血腥而且还能让人发笑 ;d 目前除了jackie chan production 我还没找到ee ;P 57岁了,不知道什么时候我不再看到他拍戏. 所以,明年的《十二生肖》我一定一定要看aa!
考完事的生活真的很闷 D; 是该做点什么的. 曾经很有毅力地说我要学英文,到头来还是什么也没做 ._. 放在杂物房里很久了的doraemon还要好看得多.
还有两个礼拜多就去念书了. 为了离开而发生的很多不好的事情都变成了多余. 因为我突然不想离开妈妈. 很不想. 蔡眷霖在朋友家过夜了几天回家后说会想我,还很努力地说服我他不是因为uncle一家人的打呼声太大而睡不着时才想起我们. 我去了他应该也会想我吧 -.- 虽然少了个他口中的肥婆在叫他自己洗碗碟喝水限制他玩电脑的时间还有唠叨他冲凉刷牙不可以进去厕所没几分钟就光溜溜的走出来.
我还有很多想做的事情. 梦想和理想 我都会达到 ;D 我相信自己. 不过我现在最想要的还是除掉脸上疤痕.考试真的会留下痕迹. AND最近发现脸很多肉 @.@

我从来都不觉得我自己是一个人的 不过有时没有事做就会乱想一通 周围有太多的事美好得让人窒息 我却失去了欣赏它们的能力 强说愁一直都不是我做的事,却成了我在做的事 有太多太多的烦恼难以说出口 我甚至觉得说了也没有人会理我 想帮我的人满多 但改变不了什么 能帮我的我不想向他低头 倔强和固执是妈妈常要我改掉的缺点 也是我认为没有必要改掉但其实是我努力想改但改不掉的缺点 雯燕说我们去大学要来一个部落格记录生活 就好像很多年轻人那样去到那里拍到那里 我想一定很酷 但我不习惯跟别人说我的问题 这会显得我很弱很不成熟 偏偏生活中就是有很多这种不太美好的小污点 也许是我太要求完美 其实我也很想像别的女生那样得过且过来但那好像不是蔡倩宜 我说我长大要赚钱和家人环游世界 拜托让我完成心愿 我要交很多朋友 拜托让别人发现我 因为我真的很不会踏出第一步 我一直说服自己样貌不是最重要的 但是如果我真的这么想我又怎么那么有毅力减了二十多公斤 尤其是当有人告诉我我丑我却还能不可思议地说出:我懂啦 好啦考完试了我要开心一点 华文就算了吧 曾经信誓旦旦地说我要straightA+ 现在不要A-就好了 对于考试的要求越来越低 难怪妈妈会告诉我她很担心 别人念书我却在看连续剧 好吧 每次写完东西就会心情比较好 现在的我又要去追戏了 YAYY

This description is a generalisation. If it rings true, you've found your career type.

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to stimulate your senses and your mind, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

•Novelist
•Photographer
•Vet
•Medical Technician
•Paralegal
•Geologist
•Marine Biologist
•Graphic Designer
•Online Content Developer
•Webmaster
•Computer Security
•Producer
•Computer Programmer
•Technical Writer
•Systems Analyst
•Meteorologist
•Artist
You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.

You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be involved deeply in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others at all costs.

You trust what is certain. You only like new ideas if they can be practically applied to the situation. You value what is real. You use your common sense. You like to utilise the skills you have instead of learning new ones. You are very specific and detailed when writing or talking to others. You follow directions well. You like things to be laid out for you to do instead of working them out for yourself. You like decisions to be made. You don't like things to be left in limbo. You like to know what you are getting into before you commit to something.

You like to focus on the here and now. You enjoy completing projects. It is important for you to achieve and succeed. Therefore, you believe in working hard and playing later. You like to set goals and work towards them.

Finding a career that is right for you isn't always an easy thing. However, if you secure a job that is suited to your personality type you will enjoy going to work, feel great about yourself, feel appreciated and look forward to what's ahead.

I finished 20 episode of HK drama within two days right after trial one WAHAHAHA so determined. After two days of non-studying day im gonna start tomorrow!
77 days 15 hours 53 minutes 15 seconds to Spm 2011. I've got a countdown widget in my phone. It started reminding me since there were still 150 days before spm. HAH! jiayou sheryl chai :)
I feel good now. Everything is so fine. Maybe I just have to lower my expectation in certain things. Keep asking mum whether will she miss me after I've gone to ER DONT KNOW WHERE BUT NOT IN MIRI FOR SURE for my U-life. HAHA she just told me xiang pi. But when I ask her to buy a smart phone and download apps which allow us to chat for free she was a bit excited and started telling me that she saw one very thin phone on the tv :)
The bad thing was, my brother said he wouldn't miss a chou ba guai. I pinched his chubby face and forced him to say that he'll miss me. "kan xian la ke neng hui ke neng bu hui" was his final answer. HAH i wanna see whether who will heat up mum's cooking for him when I'm not around :P

HAH and my nickname for my Allan chai is chou yi bai ci (ugly for one hundred times). Cause lee chong wei lose in the match ma. If he won the chou yi bai ci will be allan chai =.= Feel stupid to bet this kinda of thing with him. UGH

By the way, Im goonnaa have my first starbucks in this one week time holiday. AHAHA i dont care i dont care D:

miss you suddenly why can't we go back to the past ._. stupid me

i've realised that i'll only feel happy when i'm at the school, or to be precise, not in my house. How I wish they can stop quarrelling and consider how my brother and I feel. *is there someone who's there for me whenever I need to talk?* I hatee being emo.

最近有一点大烦恼 感觉很笨 啊很烦 什么事情都很烦恼 家里学业朋友人缘 烦死 全部滚一边 我要读书:@

Its Friday but I'm not going to school.
I told myself to study but I'm now blogging.
P/S: I on the computer after knowing two of my new students are now in a relationship. There were almost 80 people who liked their "sweet" photos. Its like two person hugging together, er luckily they didn't kiss in the photos -.-

There are lots of couples recently somehow I don't think being single means I'm a failure. Like what Pn Marrie (dont know how to spell) told my friends: Girls, if you don't have a boyfriend doesn't mean you're ugly. Be thankful that the God is looking afterr you. You'll have enough time to study then. AGREED!

Its concert tonight the night after tonight and sunday night== LALALALA my parents are going for a course for the whole day therefore noooooone is going to help me make up. I spent an hour trying to put some smelly BB cream on my face and I still couldn't see out the difference. And then I made myself looked like a ghost cos both of my eyes looked like OH CHEH. So annoying.

LALA! I think I should start studying ifffff I can't load the drama I wanna watch. Bye

I don't want to mask myself. I just wanna do what I think is correct and refuse to follow other people's footsteps.
I want to concentrate in my studies. HELLO my passion in studies fly back as soon as possible please. Have you finish travelling out theree?

I know happiness is everywhere I know the world is great and I know without high expectation satisfaction is not so far away but MY GOD how come I don't seem to reach for all of these?

MY GOD! I know there is a God up there looking after each and everyone of us including tinyyy little me but how come I become lazier and lazier in praying? Dearr Lord please let me have faith in you once more :)

LALALA Life is sometimes miserable especially there is one chinese language teacher who asks for 4 essays from you one go. MY GOD~

i'm now in the toilet playing with my phone. AHAHAH i'm gonna bath soon have dinner soon and study soon. but first I have to find myself some toilet paper. AH PA na da bian zhi geeei wo EHEE i'm random bye bye

I need someone who can help me in solving problems as my friend. I cherish those who play with me, joke with me and gossip with me. Don't like being ignored when i'm asking something important. I'm not only the one who should do all these things. How I wish I can drive, my mum wouldn't be able to nag me whenever I need to go out to buy things. Random post. I'm just too tired. Mentally. Can I scold rude words in my heart? I dont understand how come there is such people who is ignorant. Kns you joke with me always and ignored me when you feel like you want to. I despise ignorance. I wouldn't treat people in such cruel way. Friends who make me laugh are getting more. Friends who are willing to help, support and console can be counted by just using a single hand. I really dont wanna act like nothing ever happen anymore when I have a lot of things to complain about you. I really wanna know whether you like me or not, honestly. I don't understand why some people can stab you at the back and tell you that you're pretty today. Once he turn back he can just act in another way. I don't wear mask. I don't understand those who wear it. Aren't they tired?

我嫉恶如仇
我不削
我太follow the rules
我太不会做人
我不能接受不完美
我善变
我不喜欢一个人
我觉得我真的很白痴

YUHUU
Keep telling myself to study but I just can't absorb anything.
I'm guilty because I don't feel guilty anymore when I'm online ARGHH

Ishh I need textmates! I feel uneasy when my phone isn't clicking, nobody finds me, and nobody to gossip with me. I want more and moree these mates to keep me energetic during study time :P

I'm so pretty AHAHHAHAHAHA
The mirror is stunned by my beauty
Bye mirror
Being broken in this way is a pride for you :P

AHAHHA chong li kim just allow me to build my confidence in this way okay? you're pretty too *1/4Uek* much better than ham lau's 1/2 uek hor!

YUUHOO
I'm sweeping away all the dust SHOO SHOO dusty dust

EXAMS! well I tell myself try not to worry too much all the time, and I think I am doing quite well to release my stress TEEHEE! The best way for me is through sleeping. By the way I don't feel guilty anymore when I spend my time to online. The newspeaper today mentioned that our life is just like a curveee, we'll live the happiest life when we're around 25, and the curve starts going down when we reach 45. My curve should be going up now, my mood should be very high all the time and everyday will be a new start for me! :)

AHA! And I think I'm getting use to the day without him. HEHE I think this is just another infatuation & luckily I didn't do anything stupid. Aaron Lau said this world is extraordinarily big why should we find our soulmate in chung hus LOL but his is in chung hua LOL but I accept his concept :O

I think my renyuan isn't that good but I console myself by convincing myself to put quality i front of quantity :)
Halo Clare Chua although I'm not spamming your wall so often nowadays but please that I still miss you. I've wrote a letter for you but my mum told me to scan it and send it over to you. HMPH I'm sure you don't want to receive that so please wait. My love towards you will never ever die :S

yeap it's almost 3.30 now I shall take a nap and start my studying without stress :) wish me luckkkkk

I love my life now <3 <3

最近好像只要一天没有念到书就会很内疚
就算在念书时按电话玩msg也会觉得我刚刚翻过的那几页也没有吸收到
为什么~ form 5 一定要每天读书的哈

最近不知道为什么会没有mood
type的字有很多 :P :) :D AHAHA YAYY!
可是心里有在YAYY!吗

好像有一点emo
可是不可以让别人知道我在emo
因为没有人会喜欢一个negative thinking的人
尤其我才16岁leiii

每天读书
却不知道为了什么而读书
每天说要出国
经济却不允许
每天要争取奖学金
却没有那个本事
更何况我不是binti
每天set alarm要起身背sejarah
却没有一次不是off掉alarm继续倒头大睡
每天都说不能得罪人
却总是那么地straight forward
每天都说要保持笑容
却还是一样的soi脸
每天说不能放大别人的缺点
却总是耿耿于怀
每天告诉自己不要太有正义感不要太kepo
却很容易把事情说出来
每天说要改变自己
却没有那么容易
每天说我不能惹妈妈生气
却总是改不掉坏习惯
每天说不要理弟弟的无理取闹
却没有像宰相一样的肚子
每天说不能再ignore爸爸
却总是不知道要怎样回应他
每天说他只是很普通的他
却在他信息我时feel到有一点开心


我快乐
不过我还在期待着拥有更多快乐的那一天 :)

Fly high

I must be an educated woman one day.
Successful, earns a lot of money, able to buy nice and branded clothes, jewelleries, a car and a house all by myself.
I must be extraordinary myself. Only then I'll have a chance to marry a man that has higher achievement than me.


I'm actually looking down at my paternal side family. I don't understand why are they so stubborn, fighting over useless little things. Their uneducated mindset has made their children worse then them. Marry at young age, give birth to children without considering their financial problem. I felt lucky before because my dad isn't like them. Unfortunately, he is just the same kind. He has bad temper, throw tantrums, sensitive, childish and inconsiderate. My mum is not a maid! Just stop shouting at her. The only difference between he and his family is just that he earns more, and does not has children who don't like studying.


SO I'm going to work very very hard. Mum told me not to rely on any man in my life. Even after marriage I have to earn my own money, have my own properties and be independent. I know all those, if I've been treated harsh one day I can just leave my husband without hesitation. I can live on my own, if possible, find a better man!


That man has to be 100 times better than my dad.


I must be a somebody someday. Mum, look forward to the day. I'll bring you to Sydney and live with aunties together.

I don care so much if the person whom I dislike, dislike me :)

You're not annoying, I am

Kiss away the pain

All by myself.
It's all infatuation :P
Maybe I should just give that tin of XXXXXX to my bro
Since I don't really like to eat them.
HAHA!
Stupidd

Biotechnology. Pharmacy. Dentistry. Biomed.
Which one should I choose?
To obey my mum's word or to follow my heart?
I've to admit that with the qualification of biotech or biomed, it is quite hard to find job :x But I prefer biology than chemistry. I don't think pharmacy suits me since I dislike chemicals. Since I wouldn't dare to see blood or any bloody organ, I'll be te one who manufacture vaccines or antibodies then :P So interesting and I think I wouldn't get bored of being in the lab.. Eh?
I'm quite certain tat I wouldn't choose to be a dentist.
I can't imagine sheryl chai examining an ah pek with golden teeth. Or even black teeth. EWWWW

:(

I don't want to be so sensitive anymore. Ignore Ignore! Hate mood swings!

:)

害怕以为自己喜欢上你
然后才发现
那只是另一次的迷恋

♥

HEHE
People do say that secondary school life is the best time for us to build sweet memories. All types of relationship. Friendship, boys and girls relationship.
I am blessed to have lots of precious friendship. Though some of it might be just two of us acting knowing with other, and in fact I despise him/her. OmG.

Yayy I m writing this post because I suddenly feel grateful to have my friendss. <3
Chong Li KIMMMM- HAAHAHA Yayy I love you
Sonia Chinn- I love you too cause you're the only one who will let me to hug you afther Clare's gone.
Clare Chua- I miss you although you promised to call me the next day but you'd actually forgotten~
Brenda Ching-You're my important friend though your singing and dancing are -.-
Yik Shen-Don't know leh. You seem like you'll help me if I'm in trouble. HAHA thank you
KCT- I want a packet of green tea from you! HAHA you're so zhi4 zhang4 :X
Esther Su- HAA I like you too cause you'll never ignore meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Unless you;re playing with guys :P
Many of them can't see but who knows I'll make this blog public someday? :))

:)

I gotta be happy delighted and gleeeeeful everyday!

Just ignore those ignorant, and imagine that those things are not so important for me.

*imagining*

I'm trying to believe that when I lost something, another thing will come back in return.

But when will it return to me?

Trying to accept those concepts Pn HUND and my mum use to tell me.
Gotta learn protecting myself instead of giving all of my trust to someone.

I really think friendship is more important than a relationship.
So when I'm correcting something about you, please belive that I'm actually having good intention.
I'm sorry you can't accept it.

I love myself

Trying to write a longer one since I've no mood to study. Yihh I think my study mood fades a lot in 2011.
I'm thinking to write diary. I learned from telly that all successful people write diaries. Yayy maybe someday I'll have my 自传 :D who knows? "The First World-known Chinese Bio-technologist" My title! Haha dreamingg.
I'll post some photoooos regarding Chinese New Year 2011. yeaa. Otherwise dad'll be nagging around saying that I bought a camera without fully using it. LOL actually I don't know why do I look better when I zipai :X only few people will e reading this so my face can be thickeerr :P
*hey! I just didn't post it in facebook, it's weird for me* And then people willbe like "nice" "beautiful", but I wouldn't reply "you are much prettier!" LOL only clk knows what I mean :P
That's why I don't bother to post pictures taken by other people with my camera~~

Everyone is having problems with their friends. But I'm lucky enough to have people around me. I've decided not to dislike anyone, because I know the feeling being ignored. Jiayouu kim kim :D she's one of my friend who have the same KUAN with me.

More and more rebellious?
I don't know. I were scolded for the past three days. I just don't know why I can't seem to satisfy my mum. Why can't she look at my good points? Only critise & without compliments. Even a baby needs some clapping to learn crawling. And I'm not gonna crawl. I'm gonna do something big. You don't know what I need. hate being KOKed by tin opener. ITS Humiliating.
What if I tell you I never talk to the uncles and aunty in our neighbourhood just because you always scold me so loudly until all of them can hear what you're scolding? Low self-esteem.
I think I'm not bad. I don't steal like others. I don't escape school & I don't create major troules. i just need some comfort. Why don't you come and console me when I'm having sour face instead of SCOLDING me for showing a sour face?

Grr.