考试越来越近，功课越来越难，念书的推动力却越来越低。

真的不是一个喜欢静静不说话的人，不过自从roommate搬走，我就习惯关在房里念书玩facebook看tweets 9gags 还有check insta.

虽然说没有念书的动力但是至少我有翻几页啦。这样会比较安心。

真的那么难交新朋友吗？

太容易觉得一个人很好很好，也很喜欢对别人好。

不过毕竟这个世界上还是有不少很难顶，很不客气，很喜欢顺便不小心麻烦你的人。

我要学习做一个好人，不代表你可以吃定我。

我从来只是一直忍受，没有反击过。因为大家都是朋友。

如果我们不熟，我一定会到处唱，就像那天有一个不知好歹的男生插我的队，越过整排背着书包，一只手拿着课本，另一只手扶着把手的女生们，然后还很好意思地坐在整个巴士唯一一个空位置上。

说好7点读书，现在又迟了。

谁有空陪我讲话？
一个人念书真的很闷。

Fake Form.

I never stop getting fake forms.

Either fake or real ones, I have never succeeded in filling in a form completely.

I'm not yearning for new forms but please don't let me receive any fake forms anymore #

每一天过着千篇一律的生活。
起床，等巴士，等上课，等吃午餐，等放学，再等巴士。
然后，回家洗衣煮饭读书睡觉。

支持着我的有几个人很好的housemates，陈碧玉，黄祯敏和几个刚刚认识的同学。

之前说他们人很闷，其实认识久了才知道那都是假象。HAHA

不过，还是会有很空虚的时候。

roommate刚告诉我，她就要搬出去了，受不了每天等巴士浪费时间。

朋友都为我高兴，说我会有single room,其实我宁愿不要，只想要有人陪我。

而我竟然还答应帮她找房间 :(

真的很想很想看戏。就算是一个人看也无所谓，虽然我觉得一个人真的很可怜。

我不是一个喜欢窝在家里的人，可是我竟然窝了一个月。

我不在乎等巴士等电梯，更不会跟别人争先恐后，一定要把人挤出电梯挤出巴士。

我不在乎每天有很多功课，不在乎每一天都要自己洗衣煮饭，不在乎一直扫地清厨房。

不会埋怨为什么我得过这样的生活。

因为我很清楚，这些都是在外生活再也理所当然不过的事情。

只不过，有时候爬楼梯的时候还是会喘一下子的气而已。

我很在乎的是，原来朋友太久没有联络，感情真的会变淡，淡很多很多。

不断地在结交新朋友，但是你们都还是我很珍惜很珍惜的人。

有时候，我真的感觉很孤单。

不过！我每天都提醒自己，蔡倩宜很强很强，蔡倩宜不会不断抱怨，蔡倩宜要对别人很好。

比起拿吓死人的成绩，我更想做一个好人。

希望这样的自我鼓励真的会有用。

我真的知道有很多美丽的事情不断在各个我看不见的角落发生。
我知道只要再仔细一点点，再一点点就好，我就会觉得我是一个被眷顾的人。


可是，就真的让我在这边写写就好。


我很想念很想念陈碧玉，不过很奇怪，我不喜欢接她的电话，只喜欢有事没事打给她。
我也很想念很想念蔡眷霖，不过他从来不理我。


我很想很想出去玩，不要整天只是去MYDIN买菜买水果，可是总是找不到跟我一样想看戏的人。


我很积极想要和班上的人打好关系，可是我在班上总是很疲倦，不想讲话。
脸很臭的问题依然存在，因为我的同学竟然说他不敢跟我讲话。
接着我很激动地告诉他这是我从小到大的坏毛病。


我真的很克制我自己不要对Kiasu的人敬而远之，可是我忍不住看见他们就掉头转。


我很想念SG3，可是我知道我一定得向前看。


我很想很想吃很多很多蛋糕和猪肉，可是不断有人告诉我‘你好肥’。


我很想很想像以前一样每天跟你讲废话，可是notification从来不是你。


我也很想很想很想很想努力读书，可是不断地在浪费时间。


如果人的梦想靠很想很想就能实现，那该有多好。

其实，我很想很想在玩鬼屋那天，排在我后面的那个人是你。

虽然你不会知道。 
虽然我从来都不是那么重要。

I'm not used to crying but I'm feeling so insecure right now.

Four black guys banging at the door grill pressing door bells like crazy plus those fouls words that I'll only hear from TV.

The one hour seems like infinity to me.

They accused us for throwing burnt newspaper towards them from our window, but how would we do that?

We don't even have any matches or lighters in our unit.

Even if we do have them we wouldn't do this kinda thing.

The most soi thing is that the ashes really fell on my housemate's window.

The security guards came only after the black guys bangging our door for like 15 minutes. We are all girls, you can imagine how helpless we were.

The black guys came and left for many times, saying that we have no guts to open the doors, called us bullshit, and of course the F words.

I have not been so terrified before.

The black guys are now still making noise out there, probably seeking for the real person who actually threw the newspaper with fire towards them.

I'm not a mean person but I hope they'll dig the person out and leave us alone.

I'm so scared that the black guys might recognize our faces and revenge us in the future.

Who else can I lean on when I couldn't tell my mum? She might be worry and couldn't fall asleep just like me.

There is nobody there :( Calling friends at 12am midnight, that's not what I'll do.

Call someone call me right now? I'm not tough at all.

I'm here at Casa Subang, living in Unit 3A-01 together with few awesome housemates :D

 

A level is okay for now but I'm sure it will be getting tougher and tougher especially when 90% of my classmates are bursary holder. I don't want to compete with them but I don't hope to be the one with lousy result pleaseee :/

I think my mind turns so much slower than them :O

The two nearest shopping mall are Mydin and Summit.

Mydin sells goods at wholesale price which is really much cheaper ie Mum's bake biscuit at RM 3.60 per pct (RM4.20 as normal price) and HL milk at RM 5.50 (RM6.20 at 7-11)

HAHA I'm learning to be a thrifty housewife so chase me chase me :D 

Summit has more restaurants compared to Mydin which sell Malay foods in general.

But how can we afford to pay RM 10 everyday just for dinner LOL. 

The allowance is surely not enough and I don't wanna keep pressing money from the ATM and sooooo! I cook :p

The first try. Chicken wings and onion with mixed herbs.

Behind the scene -.- Trust me the food is edible.

Esther Tang wouldn't smile properly LOL

Second try. My favourite char mee with just egg and red onions.

Third try. Again trust me it looked nice but it was tasteless D;

AHAHA this is the fourth try. So far nicest. Fried eggs with tomatoes YUMMYY.

So the conclusion is Sheryl Chai can cook and she is still improving! So chase me maybe? AHAHHAHAHA