妈妈很喜欢说我很孤僻，我也很喜欢找借口说我一点也不。只不过是脸臭了一点，别人比较难接近我。
心情很复杂。Camp Chung Hua完了，很多人都认识新朋友，应该感到很开心。我却还好。
太多心了。常在想别人是不是不喜欢我，做这件事情别人会不会反感呢？讲话会不会不小心太直接弄到别人不高兴？还有很多很多~有时候觉得我有这些朋友真好，一转眼却又觉得他们其实有没有以相同的方式对我。
不习惯在心情不好时还一脸无所谓，看似很豁达，很开朗，很乐观。当然，多点笑容，自然多点朋友，可是我真的很难24小时都笑嘻嘻的。
其实每个人都有缺点吧！我却很难包容。听到谁谁谁喜欢Hiao人，喜欢放冷剑，喜欢装可怜，很幼稚，很自以为是bla bla bla，就很难去跟他做朋友。别人说什么信什么，从来不过滤哪些风声是对的，哪些是错的。就算是对的又如何？自己又何尝不是一个充满缺点的人？
跟朋友在一起时，很喜欢聊八卦，有时甚至对自己的好朋友心存怀疑。我觉得自己很不应该。我是那种不喜欢就不去跟他说话的人。还曾经为自己的直率感到很光荣，大大声的说：我从来不擦鞋，我不喜欢的人，我才没空去理。但是现在我不能，因为他们的朋友比我多，不跟他们在一起，我连我自己真正珍惜的朋友在一起的机会都减少了~因为我不可能干涉别人的交友圈子，不可能这么自私。可能那些喜欢说好话的人就是能交比较多朋友吧。
不能再这么转牛角尖！都说了每个人都有缺点，只要视而不见，与他们做朋友时应该就不会觉得自己虚伪吧~
就这么说定了 :DDD
不要讲到好像参加camp了变emo去。一点也不！因为我认识了新朋友，也对一些之前不大喜欢的人有了新一层的认识。今晚没有人拉我头发，没有人陪我刷牙洗脸，没有睡觉之前一堆人一起笑到肚子痛，没有人捏，没有人一起坐在地板吃饭，没有好喝用白糖泡的milo和barley，没有好一起去2020吃猪肠粉，没有好跳舞一直被笑cacat还觉得很爽bla~~~
*我觉得camp dance我真的又比orientation dance跳得好噢~
今天星期二，clare chua星期四就飞了。我会想念你的。*你是我能够相处得很自然的朋友。你不在，我少了能够爽爽去烦一下的朋友。少了人下课去买面，少了人开夜车，少了人抱抱，少了人帮我一些很琐碎但却很温馨
的忙~我真的会想念你。第一次肉麻，不要太感动。
clare ｃｈｕａI'LL MISS YOU REALLY MUCH♥
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
我要封锁这里。我没有一本可以上锁的日记，所以这里可以当成是我的日记部落格吧。
我告诉过我自己，我的部落格一定要有很多好笑欢乐的记载，美美的图片。那我写来做什么，写了只是为了让人看。
虽然说朋友随时为我们准备好，帮助我们，聆听我们。但是有些话就是很难说出口。说了你又不知道他会不会觉得烦，回复你的短讯也不能确定她是不是认同你。所以吧，我打算只邀请我很信任的朋友。
为什么会突然有这个想法，因为我昨天心情真的超级不好。歌唱比赛的布景我很不满意。朋友说不能看，我当然是笑着说：oiii,是富丽华给我那种超级丑的黄色。不然就：aiyahhhh,我知道很烂啦，第一次嘛！其实我知道是借口，如果我准备多一点就不会这样了。zhi xian还兴致勃勃说要打分，我整个就觉得我很没有用。明天穿黑裙去学校我真的觉得很心虚。
我真的自知道我做得很不好。但是真的让我很难过的原因是我的妈妈。在外面就受了批评，就算她觉得我事前没有准备好，布景很差，说说就好。。为什么要一直重复重复，说我浪费钱，用他的钱买了这么多东西做出来只有这样。还一直问我钱能不能claim回来。其实我也不懂。这样紧张钱我就算用零用钱也会还你啦。昨天讲，今天讲。我免疫力没有那么强。为什么我无论做什么，永远只有批评，没有称赞。
其实我很容易就哭，可是没有人懂。难道要我时不时就告诉别人：我伤心死了，哭得眼睛肿鼻子塞。我不会，除非真的很难受。因为我讨厌爱哭的女生，我认为这么喜欢哭是为了博同情吗。可是我不能控制我的泪腺，为了塑造“我很坚强”，哭了也不能告诉别人。从前，有那么一个人，我一哭，马上找她。现在，不能了。其实我还蛮想跟她做回好朋友，但是我就是不要做那个开口的人。我知道她也不会，所以，就这样吧。我后悔过写那篇文章吗？没有。可是我后悔失去这段友谊。
后来我觉得一直隐藏自己很不爽，所以我觉得用这里发泄很好。
爸爸常说我不和他讲话，可是不是我不要，而是不知道如何讲。
他们都不了解我，可是其实是我不让他们了解我。不是没有试过，但是以前我告诉他们我为什么不快乐，他们都会给我训话，心情变得更糟。那我为什么要说？
其实的妈妈很好，我要强调。只是我真的很希望有一天她会支持我。
我告诉过我自己，我的部落格一定要有很多好笑欢乐的记载，美美的图片。那我写来做什么，写了只是为了让人看。
虽然说朋友随时为我们准备好，帮助我们，聆听我们。但是有些话就是很难说出口。说了你又不知道他会不会觉得烦，回复你的短讯也不能确定她是不是认同你。所以吧，我打算只邀请我很信任的朋友。
为什么会突然有这个想法，因为我昨天心情真的超级不好。歌唱比赛的布景我很不满意。朋友说不能看，我当然是笑着说：oiii,是富丽华给我那种超级丑的黄色。不然就：aiyahhhh,我知道很烂啦，第一次嘛！其实我知道是借口，如果我准备多一点就不会这样了。zhi xian还兴致勃勃说要打分，我整个就觉得我很没有用。明天穿黑裙去学校我真的觉得很心虚。
我真的自知道我做得很不好。但是真的让我很难过的原因是我的妈妈。在外面就受了批评，就算她觉得我事前没有准备好，布景很差，说说就好。。为什么要一直重复重复，说我浪费钱，用他的钱买了这么多东西做出来只有这样。还一直问我钱能不能claim回来。其实我也不懂。这样紧张钱我就算用零用钱也会还你啦。昨天讲，今天讲。我免疫力没有那么强。为什么我无论做什么，永远只有批评，没有称赞。
其实我很容易就哭，可是没有人懂。难道要我时不时就告诉别人：我伤心死了，哭得眼睛肿鼻子塞。我不会，除非真的很难受。因为我讨厌爱哭的女生，我认为这么喜欢哭是为了博同情吗。可是我不能控制我的泪腺，为了塑造“我很坚强”，哭了也不能告诉别人。从前，有那么一个人，我一哭，马上找她。现在，不能了。其实我还蛮想跟她做回好朋友，但是我就是不要做那个开口的人。我知道她也不会，所以，就这样吧。我后悔过写那篇文章吗？没有。可是我后悔失去这段友谊。
后来我觉得一直隐藏自己很不爽，所以我觉得用这里发泄很好。
爸爸常说我不和他讲话，可是不是我不要，而是不知道如何讲。
他们都不了解我，可是其实是我不让他们了解我。不是没有试过，但是以前我告诉他们我为什么不快乐，他们都会给我训话，心情变得更糟。那我为什么要说？
其实的妈妈很好，我要强调。只是我真的很希望有一天她会支持我。
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Biscuitss :D
Saturday noon without add math tuition :D good day
And I'd decided to make biscuits * I miss those cookbooks
Actually I didn't follow exactly what the cookbook states this time. I just added whatever I like into the dough. RAISINS, cornflakes, coco crunches, DARK CHOCOLATES (dad bought a small bar of dark chocolate and nobody wants to eat it, so I threw it in)
Plus, I didn't know how much flour or butter I'd put. The recipe states that the flour should be 180 gram, but mom said I should WASTE them since this was my first time trying that recipe =_= Thus..I just simply reduced few spoons of flour and butter(to get rid of her nagging around me xD)
I wanted to make big big biscuits so I can keep on munching them for a long time.
:DD I was satisfied with the result, although they weren't as big as I'd imagined. They are quite nice. Especially with raisins and chocolate :))
Biscuitssss
Nearer look..see any cornflakes?
These are Dad's!!
And I'd decided to make biscuits * I miss those cookbooks
Actually I didn't follow exactly what the cookbook states this time. I just added whatever I like into the dough. RAISINS, cornflakes, coco crunches, DARK CHOCOLATES (dad bought a small bar of dark chocolate and nobody wants to eat it, so I threw it in)
Plus, I didn't know how much flour or butter I'd put. The recipe states that the flour should be 180 gram, but mom said I should WASTE them since this was my first time trying that recipe =_= Thus..I just simply reduced few spoons of flour and butter(to get rid of her nagging around me xD)
I wanted to make big big biscuits so I can keep on munching them for a long time.
:DD I was satisfied with the result, although they weren't as big as I'd imagined. They are quite nice. Especially with raisins and chocolate :))
Biscuitssss
Nearer look..see any cornflakes?
These are Dad's!!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
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啊。你会烦吗。我以前一看见别人emo就直接三条线。拜托我们才十多岁，有必要nge nge跟潮流学emo meh..还有我不懂自残是不是很好玩，以为能引起注意吗？excuse那是幼稚+无聊 =.=
可是我真的开始会烦了。我需要朋友，很多很多。不喜欢在家，因为他们越来越不了解我。okay叛逆期偶尔不听话很正常，可是我不想惹他们生气，并且尽力做到他们口中的--在家要'看头看尾'，可是每天都会被讽刺 =='
所以我不明白为什么有人喜欢翘课。在学校虽然会被老师jio可是被jio到很爽 O.O
我也不明白学校里面为什么有形形色色的人在争东争西。我们当然可以有憧憬，努力争取更是自己的权利。但是当你伤害别人达到目的，我瞧不起你。
妒忌心也是很令人讨厌。这个世界就是这样，人家连fifa都可以爆冷门为什么有些人就是要一直念念念。
哈我从前也认为人怎么可能没有真正的朋友。 证明我当时入世未深。可是我当然有所谓的true friends.haha.最近一下一下就流眼泪*不是哭哦* 我怀疑我有没有太情绪化。不可以不可以，我要臭脸的情况下stay happy.
thank you for being there when I were depressed. bfffff forever. Cause you never show your impatience when I called you and cried.I promise not to give up to failure easily in the future.
这个人不会看华文，所以要用我不pro的英文show我的gratitude.
可是她也不用电脑啊 >,<"
* Pada zaman yang high-tech ini, orang yang tidak surf net amat jarang o.
可是我真的开始会烦了。我需要朋友，很多很多。不喜欢在家，因为他们越来越不了解我。okay叛逆期偶尔不听话很正常，可是我不想惹他们生气，并且尽力做到他们口中的--在家要'看头看尾'，可是每天都会被讽刺 =='
所以我不明白为什么有人喜欢翘课。在学校虽然会被老师jio可是被jio到很爽 O.O
我也不明白学校里面为什么有形形色色的人在争东争西。我们当然可以有憧憬，努力争取更是自己的权利。但是当你伤害别人达到目的，我瞧不起你。
妒忌心也是很令人讨厌。这个世界就是这样，人家连fifa都可以爆冷门为什么有些人就是要一直念念念。
哈我从前也认为人怎么可能没有真正的朋友。 证明我当时入世未深。可是我当然有所谓的true friends.haha.最近一下一下就流眼泪*不是哭哦* 我怀疑我有没有太情绪化。不可以不可以，我要臭脸的情况下stay happy.
thank you for being there when I were depressed. bfffff forever. Cause you never show your impatience when I called you and cried.I promise not to give up to failure easily in the future.
这个人不会看华文，所以要用我不pro的英文show我的gratitude.
可是她也不用电脑啊 >,<"
* Pada zaman yang high-tech ini, orang yang tidak surf net amat jarang o.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Legend
Time waits for no one. Michael Jackson had left us for 1 years T.T
Few days ago I saw his performance on 8TV,and had a sudden urge to cry. OMG his songs are damnnn nice. But then I only like slow songs since I didn't understand what was he singing about in fast songs..Yet I like his dancing.
Strongly recommend: You are not alone, Heal the world & EARTH SONG
I remembered that when I was still studying in kindergarten I watched Earth song's music video once. And I still remember what the video is about..It's so eye-catching.
There were many people who looked so poor, hungry, desperate with the 'I am gonna give up' looks holding the sand in the dessert..And MJ was singing with his beautiful voice..while singing the sand in his hand was slowly "dripping" down. AHHH~so touched
And the one I like most is the " Ah haaaaaaaaa...haaaa" It's so hard to let you understand what I really mean.so pls go download it laaaa...
Ya ya somebody says he was famous because of his look. I don't really like people who go for plastic surgery but I symphatise him. He did it because of his low self-esteem for being Mr.Black.
If his father who use him to earn money since he was still small give him love and care, and the people stops discriminating Mr Black, He wouldn't be ashamed to be a Mr Black.
buey i go bangsai.
Few days ago I saw his performance on 8TV,and had a sudden urge to cry. OMG his songs are damnnn nice. But then I only like slow songs since I didn't understand what was he singing about in fast songs..Yet I like his dancing.
Strongly recommend: You are not alone, Heal the world & EARTH SONG
I remembered that when I was still studying in kindergarten I watched Earth song's music video once. And I still remember what the video is about..It's so eye-catching.
There were many people who looked so poor, hungry, desperate with the 'I am gonna give up' looks holding the sand in the dessert..And MJ was singing with his beautiful voice..while singing the sand in his hand was slowly "dripping" down. AHHH~so touched
And the one I like most is the " Ah haaaaaaaaa...haaaa" It's so hard to let you understand what I really mean.so pls go download it laaaa...
Ya ya somebody says he was famous because of his look. I don't really like people who go for plastic surgery but I symphatise him. He did it because of his low self-esteem for being Mr.Black.
If his father who use him to earn money since he was still small give him love and care, and the people stops discriminating Mr Black, He wouldn't be ashamed to be a Mr Black.
buey i go bangsai.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Huang Xiao MING!
Don't know what to write. Late already.
Cincai Cincai Xia ^^
Huang Xiao Ming is really really handsome + good body figure..
Those who think that he is too prefect and say he went for plastic surgery pls visit
here**http://www.tianya.cn/publicforum/content/funinfo/1/1844804.shtml
Ah...childhood photos already damn handsome. AHAAH..
Not many people support me. Never mind I still have LiKim.
We have same idols: Huang Xiao Ming, Leehom
She likes Jerry Yan, but for me is just =="
Strongly introduce Jackie Chan! He is 54 years old now and is harder to produce any nice movies..So what..I think "The Karate Kid" is awesome..Yea I will keep supporting him <3
Usually I don't get crazy for any idols ho, not like esther su haha.
wait and see. I will post Photos someday. >.<'
Cincai Cincai Xia ^^
Huang Xiao Ming is really really handsome + good body figure..
Those who think that he is too prefect and say he went for plastic surgery pls visit
here**http://www.tianya.cn/publicforum/content/funinfo/1/1844804.shtml
Ah...childhood photos already damn handsome. AHAAH..
Not many people support me. Never mind I still have LiKim.
We have same idols: Huang Xiao Ming, Leehom
She likes Jerry Yan, but for me is just =="
Strongly introduce Jackie Chan! He is 54 years old now and is harder to produce any nice movies..So what..I think "The Karate Kid" is awesome..Yea I will keep supporting him <3
Usually I don't get crazy for any idols ho, not like esther su haha.
wait and see. I will post Photos someday. >.<'
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