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Now you see me.

 

如果你可以乖一点

那该有多好

其实我有很多很多东西想说
不过时间过得太快 二十四小时似乎越来越短

之前差不多三个星期的假期听起来很长
不过它一下子就过了
原本兴致勃勃 jio 了人家去看戏吃 sushi
最后爸爸竟然不让我出去
弄得我很 paiseh

三个星期的其中一天
是开始 A level 后最开心的一天
没有什么特别的理由
不是因为买了很多我喜欢的漂亮衣服
也不是原本很紧的牛仔裤终于变松了

只是单纯地觉得
跟朋友一起没有顾虑地玩实在是太爽了
我很得意地告诉妈妈说我把在 sunway lagoon available 的游戏设备都玩完了
而且没有尖叫声没有叫喊声
比男生都还厉害
我也觉得有点奇怪
因为平时的我在电影院一点也不冷静  
*咳* 其实我觉得我在 extreme park 可能怕得喊不出来吧 

晚上帮 Joyce 庆祝非常 belated 的生日时
遇见一个唱歌很好听的帅哥
唱的都是我超级喜欢的慢歌
一很 high 就会犯花痴的我
弄得 manager 不断想把他介绍给我
唉 其实我连他的脸都没看到
只是别人说帅我也跟着说
请真的要相信我 
我真的只是在乱讲话

不是最好看但肯定是最开心的一张相片

过后就是 prom night
花了很多钱准备
最后化妆师把我化得很不自然
在去酒店的路途中我就已经觉得浑身不自在
不少人认不出这个人就是他们知道的 Sheryl Chai 
其实这个对我来说根本不是一件好事
到现在我都没有去看 facebook 被 tag 的照片

不过
那是一个美好的一晚 
只要是和朋友在一起的每一天对我来说都是值得开心的

好啦其实我有看一两张

Representatives of PM20

就算他把我所有的痘疤都遮掉了
我还是比较喜欢这个我

 回美里后的第二天
外婆就叫我去他的家拿我最喜欢吃的酱油鸡
心情是很复杂的
因为对我来说她不是一个很好的外婆
我更喜欢我的外公
原因很多很难表达也牵涉很多人
我当然知道我不应该不喜欢她
只是那碗酱油鸡让我觉得
之前的自己太不孝顺

外公后来对我说了他年少时的故事
外公的爸爸吸鸦片 妈妈一大早就去世了
基本上外公的爸爸除了吸鸦片外就没做什么
年纪轻轻的外公
卖过油条 钓过螃蟹 爬过大油桶 在振龙饼家打过工
每逢过年过节都自己一个人跑到海边大哭
在世界第二大战时怕得躲在大伯公庙的桌底下
他说 如果不是天照顾他 他一早就死了
后来他有了自己的杂货店
靠斗鸡也赚了足够的钱送 uncle aunty 出国念书
所以说
任何事情都是一分耕耘一分收获

还有
这只顽皮的斗鸡把我外公的右脚啄了三个洞
留了不少血

鸡鸡鸡

好吧 要说的都说完了
拜 
我到现在都不是很会为 blogpost 做结尾

现在在听着 BBC Radio 等 The Script 出场唱歌
好像有一点Obsessed
每一天都在  play他们的歌
已经差不多一个月都要听他们的歌才睡得着
上一次虽然明明知道隔天 youtube会很快 upload 他们在 Big Weekend 的表演
但是还是为了听他们唱 live 等到凌晨三点

我要开始一天存两块钱
如果以后真的出得到国
我一定一定要买票去看他们的演唱会啦
我要买front row HAHAHA

还有那个经常叫我抽脂的林玉聪交到了他第一个女朋友
他说千万不可以因为他已经不 available 就什么事情都不告诉他
他还真的知道我真的有那么想过
Denis Lim 是我永远永远的好朋友


好啦不写啦因为 The Script 出场啦
我要全神贯注!

I am actually straining my eyes now. It is exactly 2am in the morning, instead of sleeping I've chosen to write something. I have three whole weeks to spend now before having my last two papers for AS. Frankly, I won't study (like really study) until the date is coming real close. 
Three whole weeks man, how am I going to spend three weeks in my life here. Friends are going back to their own hometown and for those who aren't going back, their parents will be coming over to visit them.
I've been persuading my mum to come here since weeks ago but due to all kinda reasons she ain't coming. She asked me to go buy things I want but but mum I've got nothing much to buy except prom dress.
Yeap I'm going to have outings with my classmates but I feel like going home..so badly.

I've been thinking and thinking. What's the ultimate purpose of life?
To live a happy life of course, but I can't seem to figure out what exactly should be done to make sure that I am going to be happy in the future.
To see my parents happy & to be able to make others feel happy?
Definitely. But I need more answers.

There is someone in India whom they call him a real hero.
He saw people in his hometown eating their own human waste while he himself is at other place serving his guests. Then he started to cook for those homeless people, bath them, shave them as well as giving them love and care. He mentioned that the meals provide physical nutrition but those without shelters and families are human being like us too, they need love. 

There was a boy called Zach Siobiech who died at the age of 18 (20 May 2013), leaving behind his beloved family and a beautiful girlfriend but promised to watch over them up in the clouds. Despite knowing that he will definitely die since there is no cure for his bone cancer, he lived his life to the fullest. He left behind a beautiful song called 'Clouds' and this song climbs to iTunes's number 1 just after a day he passed away. All the money earned will go into charity to help those kids who are diagnosed with the same disease. It is not his talent in singing or his disease that inspires people, it is all about his attitude in life. This guy lived shorter than me but I think my life, at this moment, is nothing compared to his.

A dying boy managed to seek happiness and spread love until his last breath, and I seriously think that I have no right to complain about anything around me. None of us has.

These kinda stories happen all around us every single day. Touch our soul, make us think. But how many of us actually sit down and seek changes in lives? I did, but seeking is not enough. I need to know what to do. I pray that someone will give me an answer asap.

I will know it someday :)

I couldn't stop listening to their songs, days and nights.
When I'm in the bus, studying, eating and blah.

Glen, Danny & Mark from "The Script".
It is an awesome band with three Irish singers.
They write songs with deep and meaningful lyrics, the melody is soothing and Danny's voice is sexy :P
The other two sing as well but Danny is the main vocalist.
I never break into tears when I'm listening to songs, and they didn't make me do that like what they did to the others. 
Still, they are exceptionally good.
If they appear to be in Malaysia I will definitely be overjoyed.

ARGH. 

这个世界很小很小

我们所居住的地球只是整个银河系里再也微小不过的一个小点

霍金所说的黑洞能够轻易地把地球吞噬

任何一个比地球大的行星以难以算计的机率撞击地球

地球上的每一寸草每一棵树甚至是最高的山都会在瞬间化为乌有

而手无缚鸡之力的所谓万物之灵更是无处可躲

这个世界很大很大

每一秒都有无数个新生命诞生

他们可能是未来一个很伟大的科学家哲学家

他们的智慧足够改变人类的未来

或许我们为此而不在担心天灾摧毁心爱的家园

而相信末日论者不再疾人忧天

担心天空几时会崩塌

火山几时会爆发

但是又是谁说只有他们的奋斗史值得被纪念？

我只知道

任何一个努力奋斗活出精彩的人生都值得被歌颂

这个世界上有千百种人类

他们有不一样的思维想法和生活习惯

当你开始对外面的充满竞争世界感到厌倦

对周围虚伪和不折手段的人感到恶心

是谁告诉你失败是羞耻的

只有胜利才能带来快乐？

又是谁忘了提醒你

充满爱心正义和友好的人们其实无处不在？

别人的生活很好很优渥

他们含着金钥匙出生

他们去过很多个你想去的国家

有过很多你想感受的经历

他们能用你十分之一的努力得到比你多几倍的东西

但是谁说他们的生活无忧无虑？

又是谁没有告诉你

其实你所羡慕的人偷偷地希望他们能有像你一样的生活？

这个世界充满色彩

红橙黄绿蓝靛紫偶尔再雨后的天空浮现

提醒着我们积极度过每一天

学堂里的小孩能用无限的想象力画出他们眼中美好无暇的世界

艺术家用画笔让全人类惊叹

我们透过彩色电视机探索我们接触不到的外界

但是又有几个人在绚丽的色彩中

活在只有他自己能够了解的黑色地带里？

人生很短很短

我一定要把他活的很精彩很精彩

不能让它有一丁点的灰色地带

加油加油 :)