:)

害怕以为自己喜欢上你
然后才发现
那只是另一次的迷恋

♥

HEHE
People do say that secondary school life is the best time for us to build sweet memories. All types of relationship. Friendship, boys and girls relationship.
I am blessed to have lots of precious friendship. Though some of it might be just two of us acting knowing with other, and in fact I despise him/her. OmG.

Yayy I m writing this post because I suddenly feel grateful to have my friendss. <3
Chong Li KIMMMM- HAAHAHA Yayy I love you
Sonia Chinn- I love you too cause you're the only one who will let me to hug you afther Clare's gone.
Clare Chua- I miss you although you promised to call me the next day but you'd actually forgotten~
Brenda Ching-You're my important friend though your singing and dancing are -.-
Yik Shen-Don't know leh. You seem like you'll help me if I'm in trouble. HAHA thank you
KCT- I want a packet of green tea from you! HAHA you're so zhi4 zhang4 :X
Esther Su- HAA I like you too cause you'll never ignore meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Unless you;re playing with guys :P
Many of them can't see but who knows I'll make this blog public someday? :))

:)

I gotta be happy delighted and gleeeeeful everyday!

Just ignore those ignorant, and imagine that those things are not so important for me.

*imagining*

I'm trying to believe that when I lost something, another thing will come back in return.

But when will it return to me?

Trying to accept those concepts Pn HUND and my mum use to tell me.
Gotta learn protecting myself instead of giving all of my trust to someone.

I really think friendship is more important than a relationship.
So when I'm correcting something about you, please belive that I'm actually having good intention.
I'm sorry you can't accept it.

I love myself

Trying to write a longer one since I've no mood to study. Yihh I think my study mood fades a lot in 2011.
I'm thinking to write diary. I learned from telly that all successful people write diaries. Yayy maybe someday I'll have my 自传 :D who knows? "The First World-known Chinese Bio-technologist" My title! Haha dreamingg.
I'll post some photoooos regarding Chinese New Year 2011. yeaa. Otherwise dad'll be nagging around saying that I bought a camera without fully using it. LOL actually I don't know why do I look better when I zipai :X only few people will e reading this so my face can be thickeerr :P
*hey! I just didn't post it in facebook, it's weird for me* And then people willbe like "nice" "beautiful", but I wouldn't reply "you are much prettier!" LOL only clk knows what I mean :P
That's why I don't bother to post pictures taken by other people with my camera~~

Everyone is having problems with their friends. But I'm lucky enough to have people around me. I've decided not to dislike anyone, because I know the feeling being ignored. Jiayouu kim kim :D she's one of my friend who have the same KUAN with me.

More and more rebellious?
I don't know. I were scolded for the past three days. I just don't know why I can't seem to satisfy my mum. Why can't she look at my good points? Only critise & without compliments. Even a baby needs some clapping to learn crawling. And I'm not gonna crawl. I'm gonna do something big. You don't know what I need. hate being KOKed by tin opener. ITS Humiliating.
What if I tell you I never talk to the uncles and aunty in our neighbourhood just because you always scold me so loudly until all of them can hear what you're scolding? Low self-esteem.
I think I'm not bad. I don't steal like others. I don't escape school & I don't create major troules. i just need some comfort. Why don't you come and console me when I'm having sour face instead of SCOLDING me for showing a sour face?

Grr.

每次都跟自己说：不要emo不要emo了。人家会越来越不喜欢一个脸臭臭看起来对什么事情什么人都很不满意的你。

为什么每次写blog就是写不开心的事情?? 因为这些都不能跟别人数诉说。很少会听我讲然后安慰我，有一个她已经去跟nigro dating 了。其实，我也知道自己不需要杞人忧天，但真的很难做到 aikss

还是有很幼稚的想法 :P 记得小学才四年级就有些不完的纪念册，明明还有三年才分道扬镳，却是如此地迫不及待。最大的乐趣就是看好朋友在 "My friends♥" 那一栏有没有写自己的名字，还去计较自己排第几个。如果很前面代表她很快就想到你，当自己是buddy，然后可以爽一整天 :DD

没想到现在还是那么幼稚 =.=
如果我把某个人当成好朋友，但原来他并没有以相同的方式对待我，心里就莫名其妙地泛起一阵阵失落感。

我知道我很自私，遇到新朋友就会不小心忽略其他的人。怎么发现自己的这个无心之过？那是当我发现原来所谓会陪我一起玩一起讲八卦一起称赞自己的所谓新朋友，其实不过把自己当草。Grass along the roadside!

如果不想被遗忘，那就不要把人遗忘。所以！！决定了，开学，要重新与他们友情回温 YAYY I'll succeed!

真的很不喜欢backstab,尤其是自己的朋友。人非圣贤，孰能无过。不知道从那里看到这一句话：真正的好朋友是当你知道他的缺点时，还能包容他。所以！我决定不要讲别人坏话啦，除非是那些超欠打的 XDD　
因为当我和自己backstab过的朋友交往时，竟然会恨自己怎么那么虚伪。
herh,曾几何时，我变成了backstabber!我恨我自己。还好我纯粹backstab.还好我backstab并不是为了名利~不然啊~我真的不认识我自己。

这个假期我要放full full.开学要全力冲刺！我真的很难在假期做除了吃东西睡觉看电视节目睡觉以外的事情，除了没有做会被妈妈一直念念念的家务。我宁愿摊在沙发看韩国人叽里呱啦的不知道在兴奋什么，而且字幕还是韩文哦~在不然我可以看astro 302差不多一个小时的广告♥　蹉跎岁月～惭愧

妈妈很喜欢说我很孤僻，我也很喜欢找借口说我一点也不。只不过是脸臭了一点，别人比较难接近我。
心情很复杂。Camp Chung Hua完了，很多人都认识新朋友，应该感到很开心。我却还好。
太多心了。常在想别人是不是不喜欢我，做这件事情别人会不会反感呢？讲话会不会不小心太直接弄到别人不高兴？还有很多很多~有时候觉得我有这些朋友真好，一转眼却又觉得他们其实有没有以相同的方式对我。
不习惯在心情不好时还一脸无所谓，看似很豁达，很开朗，很乐观。当然，多点笑容，自然多点朋友，可是我真的很难24小时都笑嘻嘻的。
其实每个人都有缺点吧！我却很难包容。听到谁谁谁喜欢Hiao人，喜欢放冷剑，喜欢装可怜，很幼稚，很自以为是bla bla bla，就很难去跟他做朋友。别人说什么信什么，从来不过滤哪些风声是对的，哪些是错的。就算是对的又如何？自己又何尝不是一个充满缺点的人？
跟朋友在一起时，很喜欢聊八卦，有时甚至对自己的好朋友心存怀疑。我觉得自己很不应该。我是那种不喜欢就不去跟他说话的人。还曾经为自己的直率感到很光荣，大大声的说：我从来不擦鞋，我不喜欢的人，我才没空去理。但是现在我不能，因为他们的朋友比我多，不跟他们在一起，我连我自己真正珍惜的朋友在一起的机会都减少了~因为我不可能干涉别人的交友圈子，不可能这么自私。可能那些喜欢说好话的人就是能交比较多朋友吧。
不能再这么转牛角尖！都说了每个人都有缺点，只要视而不见，与他们做朋友时应该就不会觉得自己虚伪吧~
就这么说定了 :DDD

不要讲到好像参加camp了变emo去。一点也不！因为我认识了新朋友，也对一些之前不大喜欢的人有了新一层的认识。今晚没有人拉我头发，没有人陪我刷牙洗脸，没有睡觉之前一堆人一起笑到肚子痛，没有人捏，没有人一起坐在地板吃饭，没有好喝用白糖泡的milo和barley，没有好一起去2020吃猪肠粉，没有好跳舞一直被笑cacat还觉得很爽bla~~~
*我觉得camp dance我真的又比orientation dance跳得好噢~

今天星期二，clare chua星期四就飞了。我会想念你的。*你是我能够相处得很自然的朋友。你不在，我少了能够爽爽去烦一下的朋友。少了人下课去买面，少了人开夜车，少了人抱抱，少了人帮我一些很琐碎但却很温馨
的忙~我真的会想念你。第一次肉麻，不要太感动。

clare ｃｈｕａI'LL MISS YOU REALLY MUCH♥