就要离开了。
如果不是出去念书，我不会真正知道父母赚钱有多难。当你一天只给自己十块钱的生活费时，才真正知道什么叫钱不够用。
如果不是离开家里，我也不会发觉到我竟然还会想念家里那个整天惹人生气的allan chai. 更不会知道原来他也在慢慢长大，变得有一点有礼貌。（虽然暂时对我依然是那副臭脾气）
如果不是过年回家，我不会发现妈妈到底有多好。每天烦我到底要煮什么给我吃，是猪脚醋春卷饼干还是浙江排骨，但其实就算她煎一粒蛋给我，我都觉得很满足。
昨天她又问我明天的早餐想吃什么，我说想吃炒面。隔天一大早起来果然就有一大盘很香很香很香的炒面在桌上。我后来才知道，为了那一盘炒面，她特地很早起床，跑了很多地方才买到了鸡蛋面。
一个人生活，我才发现到原来家里那一大盒的橡皮筋都是靠妈妈平时慢慢存起来的。从前的我根本不会去理会这种生活中的小细节。洗衣服要分开洗，不能让衣服印到其他颜色；地板原来要天天扫才不会看见女孩们满地的落发，买玩东西后的塑料袋要很细心地折成三角形，还有千万不能让alarm snooze 了又snooze,因为这里没有妈妈不厌其烦地叫我起床。
正是因为明白钱有多么难赚，我很常提醒自己要努力读书，不能浪费父母的钱。
突然发现我在美里时一天花的钱都比在外多，因为妈妈永远是最方便的提款机。
但是当我面对真正的提款机时，就连吃午饭时多叫一杯水都不舍得。
最近脸不断变圆，裤子越来越紧，我想是因为我觉得花了钱就要把东西吃完的关系，常常把自己撑的好饱。什么都可以妥协，唯有体重不能！这种贪小便宜的心态，SHOO SHOOOO!
Bye :P 要去机场了 ：）
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Saturday, January 28, 2012
We've done nothing wrong and I really hope that there will be no thorns in our hearts.
I can't even figure out why is this happening. I hope I'm the one who think too much, like I always do.
And please, I wouldn't bother about anything anymore.
If somebody has to be blamed, it will be me because I have no courage to make it clear and to insist that I really don't mind at all. Put the blame on me because I have a complex mind that drives me to think too much.
At this moment I hope I'm still the low self-esteem girl who think I don't deserve anything, only then I wouldn't fall for anyone before.
Why am I here emo-ing when I'm supposed to be in a good mood -.-
I can't even figure out why is this happening. I hope I'm the one who think too much, like I always do.
And please, I wouldn't bother about anything anymore.
If somebody has to be blamed, it will be me because I have no courage to make it clear and to insist that I really don't mind at all. Put the blame on me because I have a complex mind that drives me to think too much.
At this moment I hope I'm still the low self-esteem girl who think I don't deserve anything, only then I wouldn't fall for anyone before.
Why am I here emo-ing when I'm supposed to be in a good mood -.-
Sunday, January 1, 2012
1.1.2012. Time to conclude my 2011.
January 2011
Prefect camp. I was in the same group with people I appreciate so much ex Timothy who I hadn't talked to since primary six, Ryan Lo who claimed that he is not familiar with me although we had been in the same class since primary four, Rivka who has very bright smile and Wen Fang who is very helpful etc. Received many notes from friends during the camp. To be honest I cried when I was reading it. LOL.
Since school reopened all subject teachers started giving us pressure, saying that Spm is utterly crucial for each and everyone of us. It's a once in a life time test so make sure we don't regret after receiving the result slip on march 2012. I was always aiming for scholarship thus I bought a table planner and jotted down what should I study every single day. Target done = 8/10.
February 2011
Still studying I think. Enjoyed my life as a prefect and joining activities with friends. Gossiped as usual. AHA! How can I forget about the new year visiting. Followed the the s1 gang and s2 friends. Went to clk's house which is deeeep in the forest, met Pys's brother which look 98% (expanded) like him, and visited Mr Yong's house twice. His son is way too cute.
March 2011
Started texting with someone when I was in the stadium, counting how many rounds the athletes had run.
Besides joining Sports Day was really fun. I don't really mind working under the blisteringly hot sun because walking to parkson to have lunch and a movie if possible with whole lots of friends was my best memory.
HAHAHA and I was in the Duck Kingdom. I was really happy since I'm not in s2 and they still treat me as a part of their 'kingdom'. :)
April 2011
I wish April Fool's Day 2011 can be sensored in my life. Not because I poured Ajinomoto into Liew Jia Lei Then Shi Wei and Aaron Lau's bottle together with Chong Li Kim and made him fooled me that he vomited severely until he couldn't attend Miss Pui's tuition, but sort of thingy just disappeared in my life D;
May 2011, June 2011, July 2011
Keep thinking and thinking. Nothing appeared in my mind. I believe I was battling with exams eh?
August 2011
If I am not wrong, form 5 prefects resigned during this month. Trial one started too. Studied like there was no day and night, setted alarm to wake me up early in the morning for the annoying sejarah especially form 5 bab 7 and bab 8, ate supper almost every night and made my weight accelerated since trial 1, drank coffee to keep me awake until coffee hardly bring any effects on me now.
September 2011, October 2011
Books everyday. Deciding where to study made me devastated. Parents wouldn't let me to study what I want to study but then they never stop asking me to decide where to go after Spm. If only I am rich all those things wouldn't happen. Went to countless education fair and I failed to have any idea about my future. I've told my mum I don't want to further my studies anymore I just wanna bake cakes and cookies then own a bakery shop which offers people with nice coffee. This sounds unreal. I've learnt to face the reality, no one would support me, even me myself doesn't have the confidence to do that.
November 2011, December 2011
Spm. I am not over-confident but I was not studying hard anymore. Even mum was worried about me and reminded me that : ah girl ah. zhe ge bu shi jia jia de kao shi liao, zhe ge shi spm oh. As she said, i was bo lang bo zuak. I myself don't know why, I thought I must be very nervous and study like mad during Spm. Things turned out to be different. Target done everyday = 5/10. *finger crossed, I still hope to get good result please.*
And the day after spm is extremely bore. Wake up at approximately 10am in the morning, clean the clothes, vacuum the floor, hang the clothes, heat the dishes, lunch time, wash the dishes, watch telly, take a nap, texting, facebooking, stalking, day dreaming, and hang outs *YAYY*
I should have find myself a job. Pocket money now < rm50 T___T
In short, every seconds in 2011 is worth remembering. The countdown yesterday is the best countdown in my life. I sincerely hope that we'll all meet each other again after ten years and another ten years. May all dreamers like us achieve our own dreams.
January 2011
Prefect camp. I was in the same group with people I appreciate so much ex Timothy who I hadn't talked to since primary six, Ryan Lo who claimed that he is not familiar with me although we had been in the same class since primary four, Rivka who has very bright smile and Wen Fang who is very helpful etc. Received many notes from friends during the camp. To be honest I cried when I was reading it. LOL.
Since school reopened all subject teachers started giving us pressure, saying that Spm is utterly crucial for each and everyone of us. It's a once in a life time test so make sure we don't regret after receiving the result slip on march 2012. I was always aiming for scholarship thus I bought a table planner and jotted down what should I study every single day. Target done = 8/10.
February 2011
Still studying I think. Enjoyed my life as a prefect and joining activities with friends. Gossiped as usual. AHA! How can I forget about the new year visiting. Followed the the s1 gang and s2 friends. Went to clk's house which is deeeep in the forest, met Pys's brother which look 98% (expanded) like him, and visited Mr Yong's house twice. His son is way too cute.
March 2011
Started texting with someone when I was in the stadium, counting how many rounds the athletes had run.
Besides joining Sports Day was really fun. I don't really mind working under the blisteringly hot sun because walking to parkson to have lunch and a movie if possible with whole lots of friends was my best memory.
HAHAHA and I was in the Duck Kingdom. I was really happy since I'm not in s2 and they still treat me as a part of their 'kingdom'. :)
April 2011
I wish April Fool's Day 2011 can be sensored in my life. Not because I poured Ajinomoto into Liew Jia Lei Then Shi Wei and Aaron Lau's bottle together with Chong Li Kim and made him fooled me that he vomited severely until he couldn't attend Miss Pui's tuition, but sort of thingy just disappeared in my life D;
May 2011, June 2011, July 2011
Keep thinking and thinking. Nothing appeared in my mind. I believe I was battling with exams eh?
August 2011
If I am not wrong, form 5 prefects resigned during this month. Trial one started too. Studied like there was no day and night, setted alarm to wake me up early in the morning for the annoying sejarah especially form 5 bab 7 and bab 8, ate supper almost every night and made my weight accelerated since trial 1, drank coffee to keep me awake until coffee hardly bring any effects on me now.
September 2011, October 2011
Books everyday. Deciding where to study made me devastated. Parents wouldn't let me to study what I want to study but then they never stop asking me to decide where to go after Spm. If only I am rich all those things wouldn't happen. Went to countless education fair and I failed to have any idea about my future. I've told my mum I don't want to further my studies anymore I just wanna bake cakes and cookies then own a bakery shop which offers people with nice coffee. This sounds unreal. I've learnt to face the reality, no one would support me, even me myself doesn't have the confidence to do that.
November 2011, December 2011
Spm. I am not over-confident but I was not studying hard anymore. Even mum was worried about me and reminded me that : ah girl ah. zhe ge bu shi jia jia de kao shi liao, zhe ge shi spm oh. As she said, i was bo lang bo zuak. I myself don't know why, I thought I must be very nervous and study like mad during Spm. Things turned out to be different. Target done everyday = 5/10. *finger crossed, I still hope to get good result please.*
And the day after spm is extremely bore. Wake up at approximately 10am in the morning, clean the clothes, vacuum the floor, hang the clothes, heat the dishes, lunch time, wash the dishes, watch telly, take a nap, texting, facebooking, stalking, day dreaming, and hang outs *YAYY*
I should have find myself a job. Pocket money now < rm50 T___T
In short, every seconds in 2011 is worth remembering. The countdown yesterday is the best countdown in my life. I sincerely hope that we'll all meet each other again after ten years and another ten years. May all dreamers like us achieve our own dreams.
Monday, December 26, 2011
X'mas 2011
My very first christmas tree from Ben Yaw when I bumped into him at Parkson. Kinda weird. But it's nice though :)
Yea it's christmas day. My family doesn't celebrate Jesus's birthday so this special day doesn't bring any meaning to mum and dad. I hope we'll have the chance to decorate the christmas tree one day. Before this I have to persuade them to go to the church first.
YAYY I went to 台湾小馆 for dinner today. I'm not going there anymore since they failed to serve me nice food for twice already. Even my mum can cook hundred times better -.-
My face always look bigger and rounder in photos. Or to be precise my face is indeed round and big .__.
Despite the lousy food we had a whale of a time. Being together with good friends always promises a good laugh. Sharon Kho never waste one second in hunting handsome guys who are always at least two years younger than her. Grace Ngu maintains her "over high" spirit and keep laughing by her own. Someone curses people so often that I've learnt to say the same thing everytime I'm nervous. We're parting in two weeks time but I think this brings no difference since we know we'll still keep in touch. This is called friendship!
*Siian and I can't find Wen Yen and Ah Then's photo. I think I didn't delete it oh D:
Tadaa!
I bought the moon and star thingy at Imperial. Bought it simply because I feel like buying it. Btw I wore the butterfly ear ring yesterday for the first time after buying it for one year. It's so pretty but I just can't find other clothes to match with it on the other days.
Merry Christmas to all :)
Can't wait to countdown together with friends!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Shalala I've just edited the Html. This was my first time and I spent two hours on it. Posted in Chinese for too frequent!
Christmas is two days ahead. I hope mum would let me to go out with Likimxbb and Momo although I have only Rm 50 left in my purse. Even the superstingy Allan Chai has few hundreds HERH.
I'm in a good mood now but if someone can let me know how to edit more thingy that would boost up my mood :) someone help me *begging*
I feel like I'm making sentences now. Oh well just don't post anything if you don't have anything to talk about la. LOL
So, bye. AHAHA
Christmas is two days ahead. I hope mum would let me to go out with Likimxbb and Momo although I have only Rm 50 left in my purse. Even the super
I'm in a good mood now but if someone can let me know how to edit more thingy that would boost up my mood :) someone help me *begging*
I feel like I'm making sentences now. Oh well just don't post anything if you don't have anything to talk about la. LOL
So, bye. AHAHA
Thursday, December 22, 2011
体重快50的我最近严重觉得我除了蝴蝶袖很恐怖之外,脸也越来越多肉 T___T
就太闷了啊. download 很多 nigahiga 和 wongfu production 的 videos. 一群很自豪的 asian. 身为 asian 的我当然要很支持啊! 不过不太喜欢 kevjumba. 目前很喜欢的 videos 有 valentine's day story 和 The inavigator. 最近有 Christmas swag 可是他们 rap 太快我听不懂 HMM ><
就最近很不想 text 所以很常就没 reply D; 尤其是 pys 的. 就刚刚被骂所以很不想嬉皮笑脸地玩 texting 啊. 我也不想.
olivia Ong 的“海枯石烂”就爆好听的啊! 还有刘子绚真的是爆美的. 很明显地我最近很迷“行医”哈哈~ 我还知道李铭顺40岁, 而美到到到到很厉害的刘子绚30有2了. 而那个我觉得虽然不会很美很美 但演戏不错的短头发女生叫庞蕾馨, 今年27, 而且从台湾来. 她的名字很美啊啊啊 *amplify 再 amplify* 除了那个“庞”字. 没什么嘛,就真的真的很闷才去做资料搜寻.
就这样啊啊啊 *严重AMPLIFY* 很闷的人生就还剩下两个星期. 我也只有那两个星期保持颓废. 啊哈! 忘了说,我卷头发了! AHAHA 张莉琴你也快一点啊 <3
就太闷了啊. download 很多 nigahiga 和 wongfu production 的 videos. 一群很自豪的 asian. 身为 asian 的我当然要很支持啊! 不过不太喜欢 kevjumba. 目前很喜欢的 videos 有 valentine's day story 和 The inavigator. 最近有 Christmas swag 可是他们 rap 太快我听不懂 HMM ><
就最近很不想 text 所以很常就没 reply D; 尤其是 pys 的. 就刚刚被骂所以很不想嬉皮笑脸地玩 texting 啊. 我也不想.
olivia Ong 的“海枯石烂”就爆好听的啊! 还有刘子绚真的是爆美的. 很明显地我最近很迷“行医”哈哈~ 我还知道李铭顺40岁, 而美到到到到很厉害的刘子绚30有2了. 而那个我觉得虽然不会很美很美 但演戏不错的短头发女生叫庞蕾馨, 今年27, 而且从台湾来. 她的名字很美啊啊啊 *amplify 再 amplify* 除了那个“庞”字. 没什么嘛,就真的真的很闷才去做资料搜寻.
就这样啊啊啊 *严重AMPLIFY* 很闷的人生就还剩下两个星期. 我也只有那两个星期保持颓废. 啊哈! 忘了说,我卷头发了! AHAHA 张莉琴你也快一点啊 <3
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
最近真的很闷. 在家看了很多很多成龙的旧戏,每一个动作都不用替身,我想这是我从很小就开始很喜欢他的原因. 有没有一部动作片不含血腥而且还能让人发笑 ;d 目前除了jackie chan production 我还没找到ee ;P 57岁了,不知道什么时候我不再看到他拍戏. 所以,明年的《十二生肖》我一定一定要看aa!
考完事的生活真的很闷 D; 是该做点什么的. 曾经很有毅力地说我要学英文,到头来还是什么也没做 ._. 放在杂物房里很久了的doraemon还要好看得多.
还有两个礼拜多就去念书了. 为了离开而发生的很多不好的事情都变成了多余. 因为我突然不想离开妈妈. 很不想. 蔡眷霖在朋友家过夜了几天回家后说会想我,还很努力地说服我他不是因为uncle一家人的打呼声太大而睡不着时才想起我们. 我去了他应该也会想我吧 -.- 虽然少了个他口中的肥婆在叫他自己洗碗碟喝水限制他玩电脑的时间还有唠叨他冲凉刷牙不可以进去厕所没几分钟就光溜溜的走出来.
我还有很多想做的事情. 梦想和理想 我都会达到 ;D 我相信自己. 不过我现在最想要的还是除掉脸上疤痕.考试真的会留下痕迹. AND最近发现脸很多肉 @.@
考完事的生活真的很闷 D; 是该做点什么的. 曾经很有毅力地说我要学英文,到头来还是什么也没做 ._. 放在杂物房里很久了的doraemon还要好看得多.
还有两个礼拜多就去念书了. 为了离开而发生的很多不好的事情都变成了多余. 因为我突然不想离开妈妈. 很不想. 蔡眷霖在朋友家过夜了几天回家后说会想我,还很努力地说服我他不是因为uncle一家人的打呼声太大而睡不着时才想起我们. 我去了他应该也会想我吧 -.- 虽然少了个他口中的肥婆在叫他自己洗碗碟喝水限制他玩电脑的时间还有唠叨他冲凉刷牙不可以进去厕所没几分钟就光溜溜的走出来.
我还有很多想做的事情. 梦想和理想 我都会达到 ;D 我相信自己. 不过我现在最想要的还是除掉脸上疤痕.考试真的会留下痕迹. AND最近发现脸很多肉 @.@
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