Two of the contact names in my phone :( and :)

Hell I wanna go home -.-

Ma mi, Happy Mother's Day.
I love you, but its too awkward to tell you.
I miss u, although I've never talk to you properly on the phonee.
I wanna hug you again before I sleep :)


Everyday I'm hoping that my mii wouldn't get old so soon. 

Some things can't be forgotten. They will always stay, no matter how hard I've tried.

Damn emo.
I used to think that we will be the bff forever, but when I feel bad you just left.
I used to think that oh yes I found you, but then you left me too.
I wanna go back to Miri, I need Chong Li Kim I need Claire King I need many of themm.
I just don't wanna stay here anymore.
I feel so guilty for spending my parents' money emo-ing here.


Clare, I need ur hugs. 

I blog whenever I can't sleep cause have been sleeping for too long/insomnia/don't feel like sleeping -.-
I really have been sleeping too much. Seriously feel like a pig. Wake up eat sleep wake up eat sleep. Nothing better to do? NO there are a lot of homework piling up -.-


Hungry all day long. My arms are getting fatter and fatter. My pants are getting so tight. Just gotta skip a few meals then everything will be okay but then I realized I always fail. Hey you my determination where are you :O Come back too mee pls :/


Feeling lonelyy. There are a lot of Hi-Bye friends but deep inside my heart I miss my old friends so much. I wanna go back home so eagerly although I don't call back home everyday. Evie Tan always calls me when I'm having my dinner eg. eating finger's lickin good KFC so I have got to ask my friend to pick up the phone for me and put it near my earsss -.- Mum I don't call back doesn't mean I don't miss home and seriously you don't have to spam call me everytime I'm eatingg.  


I'm lonely. I need hugs. But I'm not desperate. Just feel so speechless whenever they say I'm falling for someone. Chatting with a guy friend often doesn't mean falling for him. Can't he be somebody that I could get along easily with? Lol this kinda of person is so hard to find. Why should I give up? Ngo zan hai mou fat gan hao. 


Did nothing this weekend except gaining fat. Shall start studying tomorrow. Hope so. 
Nights :)

Baby, oh

Even in my heart I see
You're not bein' true to me
Deep within my soul I feel
Nothing's like it used to be

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playin' games with my heart

Quit playin' games with my heart
Before you tear us apart (my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart
I should've known from the start
You know you got to stop (from my heart)
You're tearing us apart (my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart

I live my life the way
To keep you comin' back to me
Everything I do is for you
So what is it that you can't see

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
You better quit playin' games with my heart

Baby, baby the love that we had was so strong
Don't leave me hangin' here forever
Oh baby, baby this is not right, let's stop this tonight

Baby, (oh) quit playin' games
Baby

Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playin' games with my heart

Quit playin' games with my heart
Baby

Quit playin' games with my heart
(my heart)
Baby (my heart)

With my heart

I knew it wouldn't last long. I knew very well that you're being not true to me. I really knew it.

So is it my fault because I am the one who decided to quit playing :/ 

Some lines were sensored. It wouldn't happen :)
I have to admit that maybee I was too desperate LOL. And I promised myself never to do this anymore.
Studying should be my main focus :DDD *sighh*

Sometimes even friends wouldn't last long. I remembered how we used to be. We were together for almost everyday, and promised to be a good uncle/ aunty to our children in the future. We promised to keep in touch no matter where are we going to set foot, and a lot more promises.

Sadly, it turned out to be something totally different. Falling in love can really change someone. Please please I am not trying to blame anyone on this :/ but can you please fix the problemm? Although you don't even know I blog :(

The bursary thing messed up my life.
I've gotta switch to A level, move to the hostel provided by government and most importantly, leave my whole bunch of friends here at Subang.
What I really mean is, I will have to have dinner on my own, no more fifteen minutes walk to Subang Parade for movies (I'm a movie freak), no more supper at mamak, no more staying up late at college with friends, and blah! 
Things have never been smooth. Whenever I wanna give a try something else will suddenly BOOMMM in and Opps Sheryl Chai so sorry, you have gotta stop it. 
Yea I know there are only half more year ahead, but do you have to shrink it to only three months?


Anything unpleasant please please visit me now, I'm strong enough to face you all craps at once. 
Please don't bother me once July starts.
July, I hope everything will be okay.